It’s time a gave a shit about myself. It’s time to stop worrying about what others want from me. What do I want? I want to be healthier. That’s about to start. I realized in a self loathing moment (with my piece of chocolate cake) that I can shake this shit off. Time to stop selling myself short. I don’t want to be diabetic like the entirety of my family. I don’t want high blood pressure. My cholesterol isn’t bad, but it isn’t good. I have always missed not being physically fit like when I did powerlifting in college or playing basketball in high school. Time to throw the excuses out the window.
So I’m grabbing onto this bull called life by the horns. Testosterone has given me the strength (physically) for the first time to be able to work out. What’s stopping me? Me. I only work 33-40 hours a week. I have a lot of free time. I spend too much time to thinking about what I want instead of just trying to do it. Well now I have the desire to change.
I know being physically healthier will help me medically and mentally. Being bipolar sucks, but I am letting it. I can do more to make it take less of a toll on my emotions. I looked over and was reading the serenity prayer I have on my dresser. The four words that are bold are: God, Serenity, Courage, and Wisdom. I have been missing some courage. Time to stop being the Lion from the Wizard of Oz.
Some big changes are about to happen. And this time I’m excited about them. If you miss me, text me, comment. drop a line, whatever you need. I honestly don’t know how I’m missing out on. Sometimes I need a good reminder. Thanks for your continued support. You make this an easier life for me.
