My life is so different than I ever could have imagined right now. 26 about to 27 in July. I’m no where near where I wanted my life to be. Or so I thought. I had a life plan. Get married to the girl of my dreams, have my first kid, and be a productive [...]
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Learning to be a new man…
Posted: April 11, 2012 in FTMTags: dysphoria, friends, FTM, understanding me
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Riding a roller-coaster and the damn thing won’t stop…
Posted: March 2, 2012 in FTMTags: FTM, passing, queer, Tennessee, therapist, understanding me
Wow has it been a while since I have updated. I can honestly say I have been avoiding this blog. I’ve been afraid of myself. Crazy I know. Hence the title of this blog. I have been feeling a lot more up and down in my emotions of late. I feel I’m on the ride [...]
13 months
Posted: October 9, 2011 in FTMTags: family, friends, FTM, job, medicine, Seth, shaving, work
I thought I could just come home and be me. Not be my former self. I remember now why it was so easy to leave here three years ago to go to Tennessee for college. My friends and family seemed like enough. I could survive on their love and support. Or so I thought. I [...]
Pushing beyond pain…
Posted: October 2, 2011 in FTMTags: Dating, FTM, gender, male, medicine, understanding me, work
Recently my health has taken a turn for the worse. I am currently battling a slipped disc in my back. I am getting steroids put in my back by epidural shots. I am sedated when they shot me up. Steroids are a curse and a blessing. I can finally feel my foot after two months [...]
I’m Post OP! And healing well! and some random ramblings
Posted: September 7, 2011 in FTMTags: Chaz, FTM, medicine, ovaries, sexuality
It’s almost two weeks since surgery. I am doing great with that part of my body. I got back the pathology report. The doctor was like yep that thing needed to come out. I had endometriosis and adenomyosis. So that puppy needed to come out and man it explains the pain I was having. I still [...]
So I am scheduled to have my hysterectomy next Wednesday! Finally to be rid of this hateful thing. I don’t like it and it doesn’t like me. The time has come to have it taken out. I was surprised that they would be so ready to take out so quickly. I have tried many different [...]
Ok so it was a no go for hormones here. They want me to be seen for three or four weeks in a row before I get hormones. Not happening. I’m going back to Monroe. But while I was there I found out I really need to see the GYN ASAP! Apparently the cramps are [...]
I have noticed a lot of changes recently. I don’t think that they are happening that fast. I am just more aware of them now. I realized a couple of days ago I have back hair. This is the one thing that I’m not really happy about getting. I knew it could happen, but I [...]
